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how many of you are still here ??? anyways, here's my obligatory once a year journal lmao 

i've been on my antidepressants for like a year now and i'm sort of functioning again and it is good. i'm at art school, and like actually having fun this time instead of alienating everyone and rotting away in my room

idk what to put here really, i'm making a bunch of different stuff and experimenting and none of it is even remotely similar to what's in my gallery on here *shrug* 

if you wanna check out my instagram it's havent_seen_the_last_of_me 

I recently set up a GoFundMe page so that friends and family could help me achieve my goal of getting top surgery should they wish to do so. I've never really been this forthcoming about my experiences with dysphoria and my struggles surrounding being transgender before, but I want to get my story out there and bring to light the experiences that people like me commonly face when trying to medically transition. 

Any commissions I take will go towards this cause from now until I can afford to schedule a consultation. My newest commission prices are here if anybody would like to help



I also want to mention how devastated I am by the recent events in Orlando. Please keep in mind the things that the media doesn't want you to know. The killer's father has confirmed that his son is not a practicing Muslim and that it was a homophobic attack, motivated by hatred and specifically aimed at the LGBT community. News reports are glossing over these facts and insisting that he acted in the name of religion. 

Now, more than ever is a time for solidarity, when queer people are being killed for daring to exist in their own spaces and Muslims are being persecuted in the media at every possible opportunity. The most helpful and radical thing you can do is to keep loving eachother and keep making sure that everybody knows the truth. Don't speak of this in vague blanket statements. Acknowledge it for what it was. Gun violence is an awful thing that can take anybody at any time, but this, now, is about the gay community specifically.

Any LGBT people in the Orlando area, please look after yourselves I love you all.

So, when I was underage I had people asking for porn of every character under the sun, but now that I'm a big grown up it doesn't seem to happen anymore? I draw a bit of NSFW art off site and it's definitely something I'm open to doing if anybody wants it. 

On the more innocent front, I am going to try to draw a bit more of everything. I definitely wanna draw some Peridot fanart and I saw the Jungle Book yesterday so I might be drawing some of that. Also a couple of people on Facebook were talking about commissioning me so I might be around more often. 

How are you guys?

Not the people, the staff. Shouldn't it be my decision whether or not my artwork belongs in my scraps or not? I just visited my gallery to find that my sketchdump folder had been deleted and that all of my work from that folder was in my scraps. I don't care if it wasn't presented nicely, it was still work that I was proud of. I'm a mess most of the time and it's incredibly rare that I finish a piece, so why shouldn't I show people unfinished work?

My last journal entry was messed up and definitely not an okay thing to do to you guys. Luckily the people who read through it seemed to be people who had contact with me on other platforms so I don't think anybody was scared. My mental health isn't exactly improving but it's my problem and my responsibility, so perhaps deviantART isn't the place for it. 

I'm drawing again a little bit. I've done small gifts for friends and little doodles here and there. I'm going to try doing some Lion Guard fanart, maybe going back to my roots a little bit. 

That's pretty much it really... I just wanted to check in and let you know that I'm alive, literally.

Mitch x